I ACCIDENTALLY wrote an essay.....

​You know what I feel like... I'm this dumb old couch that "so and so" bought so no one wants to get rid of it. I'm also constantly being called ugly by all these people even though they refuse to get rid of me. So I started to relate to other ugly couches and it's then I realise the ugly couches can't help but point how "ugly" each other are when they're in a group. That would be despite the fact that all these couches ARE ugly or they wouldn't be flocking together.
Looking at this introspectively human beings, BEING the couches are just that, ugly... I've spent a lifetime trying to accept the fact nature just happens to be ugly unless we change our perspective. If I didn't joke about it I'd probably never smile and that's not to say I'm even "sad". I'm just cold and bitter like a lot of others are today. Why wouldn't we be?
We should ALL be mad about something and no one issue is too important right now.
I just know when I go through the motions because I don't like something about myself I'm immediately out to change it which requires some effort. I ALWAYS feel less of an ugly couch when I'm putting that effort in though.
So I'm in the backyard digging a giant square of dirt for a food garden to become even healthier and produce goods for sale and trade. This is whilst I've made my first $30 from Patreon. It's all about stacking skills and resources, everything else happens naturally. I still don't know what moneys worth though when we're literally trading cotton for cotton at the end of the day.
Being said... All that's going on in our "collective mindset" (being the general public from my news feeds perspective) and this being just random thoughts, honestly. I know we are all on the topic of privilege lately and my life story is probably long and sad, if not boring, so I won't go on about my hardships; like it's a pissing match but.... If we work harder on focusing on the things that make us "brighter" we are often blinded by that light and color seems to fade. When we work hard to solve a problem together from my experience it's hard to hate the man working his ass off beside me. It's REALLLLY easy to hate the fat manager who does nothing and bitches though... 🤷‍♂️
Maybe it's not picking cotton that makes one a "slave" but being forced to pick someone else's cotton that does. Maybe that's the whole point. We are ALL tired of doing the work for someone else to obtain materials we COULD obtain ourselves and be healthier for it. Maybe the money is blinding us from the fact we are all being manipulated by fat managers who are forcing us to bring them the resources we need in exchange for, wait for it.... COTTON! Which we trade for clothes to go to work in made of, COTTON! Then we realize hard work is important for a healthier happier life and we get inspired but lose progress because we don't want to be stuck doing it for some fat lazy asshole who can't do anything for himself.
I'm just saying... I see a solution to a lot of this shit and it starts with a better class of people being in charge of ourselves. I mean, it's always "WE THE PEOPLE" until someone has to put forth effort. Maybe people just stop going to their "JOB" and start going to WORK for themselves?
I mean... Imagine the whole country quits their nine to five starts personal gardens and shit and then runs a homestead. Imagine what would happen to the fucking system. Well it would just be crazy wouldn't it? That seems to be what people keep telling me though that's what everyone wants of themselves... Where does that collective mindset even begin where we've found ourselves today?